It�s been almost 3 months and nothing�s changed. It did, slightly, a few months ago when I unilaterally decided to reduce my quetiapine dose from 600mg to 400mg. That didn�t end well; it made me ill almost immediately. And...
It�s been almost 3 months and nothing�s changed. It did, slightly, a few months ago when I unilaterally decided to reduce my quetiapine dose from 600mg to 400mg. That didn�t end well; it made me ill almost immediately. And feeling ill I began a battle to see a GP. That took a few weeks. She referred me back to my psychiatriast at Secondary Care. That took a month; no, more. And that was last week.
It�s good to talk about my illness � not just with a health professional but with anyone.
He suggested my most urgent issue was anxiety, which I agree with (but not exclusively). I�ve been in a depression for quite some time now. He suggested I increase the quetiapine dose to its recommended maximum: 800mg. I already have huge issues with weight gain and the other side effects of quetiapine so I said no. His second suggestion was to take lorazepam for the anxiety / OCD I have.
Which I started doing a week ago; the side effects of those have been deeply unpleasant; I�ve spent the past week �stoned�, walking around like one of the Undead. The most significant side effect has been incontinence. That alone has determined I stop taking that med. Nothing online suggests this side effect though, which is strange, so it�s probably contra-indicated with one of my existing meds.
Work starts again soon; I�ve absolutely no idea how I�m possibly going to manage that.
Today I�ve managed to avoid crying. And all I want, just now, is to to be hugged; to be held. That�s not too much to ask for, is it?
From: The Thorn by William Wordsworth
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