After losing my best friend my dog that I loved with all of my heart. My heart was broken for a long time. That dog was with me through everything. My husband and I were like roommates living in...
After losing my best friend my dog that I loved with all of my heart. My heart was broken for a long time. That dog was with me through everything. My husband and I were like roommates living in the same home but with completely different lives. I found that really hard it seemed like we drifted further and further apart. We fought often and occasionally we would do things together. I never felt so lonely in my marriage.
As usual I was told that my husband had no changed so obviously it was me. I often felt that I was the one that was in the wrong constantly. I lived my own life separate from his and we no longer shared a bedroom. I moved down the hall. For 10 years we lived like that. To me that�s not love. I found myself shutting down with the Spiritual abuse. To be told your not doing what God wants for you is really hard to live with. It�s brutal on your self esteem and according to my husband he still loved me.
I grew super distant from him. He always wanted to go and live back in the US. That was his dream to own a farm and live off the grid. I did that once when we lived in Washington. He loved it but I found it so isolating. He wanted me to come and be with him but I wanted to be here with my family and friends. One day four years ago he packed up all his things and he left. I was glad because things were awful at home. I was done and no longer wanted him to live in my home.
Being married for 19 years to them being single and alone was hard for me. I always imagined I would be married forever. It�s taken me a long time to get to be where I was really happy with my life. I love my life I have an awesome job, great friends, lots of support and my family is here. I have a Labradoodle named Zeke who is an awesome dog. He loves me unconditionally. I have a mini plush lop rabbit which he is so sweet.
I�m blessed by so many things in my life now. I�m a different woman who is confident and knows that no matter what God is looking out after me. I am who I am today from amazing mentors in my life. Even though my life was really hard and tough God had given me huge insight on children who have trauma in their lives. I�ve seen some of the toughest children learn how to trust and just loving them so much is so powerful for them. Love changes so many things. I saw it in my life and now I see it in the children I work with.
I am an advocate for both children and adults and a voice for those that can�t speak up for themselves. I�ve had to do hard things in my life but I would never change that.
Thank you for reading my memoirs in my blog. I hope that it gives people hope and encouragement. Remember that no matter where you have come from you can do anything.
