I�m in pain. Pain so severe, I am too nauseous to eat. Pain so severe I can barely walk up stairs in my home. I�m experiencing fatigue so severe that every thing I do causes me to have to...
I�m in pain.
Pain so severe, I am too nauseous to eat.
Pain so severe I can barely walk up stairs in my home.
I�m experiencing fatigue so severe that every thing I do causes me to have to lie in bed and rest.
Run errands, rest.
Walk the dog, rest.
Why is this happening? It�s quite simple. I made a big mistake.
A big one.
I work in a school, so my days off are limited. Unlike most teachers who can bank their days for retirement, I use mine because I can�t put shoes on my swollen feet or I can get my hands to work the clasps on my bra.
At the start of this past school year, I documented how I was out of work for three weeks with pneumonia. Then an additional 10 days due to COVID and rebound COVID. I cruised through my sick days before Thanksgiving and my personal days were primarily used for my mom�s doctor�s appointments. The 3 sick days I had left, I broke into half days so I could get my infusion.
Fast forward to June and I�m nearing the end of the school year. My biologic infusion was due during my last week of school. It�s always hectic, so I opted to put off my infusion until next week, when I didn�t have to work.
Worst decision ever.
On the plus side, I know that Remicade is working because when it wears off, I am a hot mess.
Have I learned my lesson to not delay my infusion in the future? I hope so. Unfortunately, knowing me, I will continue to put work and the needs of others before mine.
Balance has never come easy to me. Awareness tends to be clear and hindsight is always 20/20.
When I am feeling better, I plan to celebrate ending year 31 in education. and Finni�s 3rd year in daycare. Even in pain,I pretend everything is fine.
